everything and everything
i have to follow your rules,
how about mine?
who cares about my thinking?
who to fulfil my expectation, desire and dreams all along these days?
i tried to control listen and follow your words
to prevent arguements and unhappiness between us,
controling myself to have this and have that
is just to maintain and enhance the ties between us.
but today, everything gone worse, i mean been to the worst
if i never think about you
i will spent as much as i could, doing without thinking, throwiog my books aside when having an extreamly pressure during my exam.
if i never think about you,
i will never waste my time here and study hard to gain a better result FOR YOU.
when i was having pressure,when i was feeling like killing myself,

the first thing i think about is you and she.
great, my blog is activate again because of this certain of uninteresting thing. sorry if i made you guys worry and bringing you guys troubles or annoying.
i'm just trying to express my feeling not to someone but here, i dont know how to talk with people about my problems through speaking. keeping inside the heart aint helping,it would just make us to be more suffer,right?